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In Memoriam: Lloyd Wayne Hampton
Executed
by the state of Illinois on January 21, 1998
The following was written by a
friend of Waynes:
Wayne Hampton's case received a lot of publicity because he claimed
to have murdered a downstate man in order to get the death penalty.
At his trial he asked for the death penalty, and as soon as he was
admitted to death row at Menard, he requested that his sentence be
carried out immediately. He wanted no appeals - he just wanted to
die.
Wayne volunteered twice to be executed before his appeals
were completed. The first time -- when he was in the death house awaiting
execution -- his friends, sister, and attorney talked him into stopping
his execution and resuming his appeals. The second time, he remained
resolute. He seemed not only resigned but almost looking forward to
his impending execution.
A psychiatrist would have characterized Wayne as a seriously clinically
depressed person. Whatever he was clinically, Wayne truly wanted to
die - he saw death as an end to the terrible life he'd had. There
was very little joy and love in Wayne's life, and pain in abundance;
more pain than anyone should ever have to endure. He had been abandoned
by his mother at the age of six, horribly abused by his father, and
basically relegated to a lonely and unloved existence at a very young
age. Yet, by resuming his appeal after first giving it up, he responded
to the love in that ugly cellblock and agreed to live for us; to save
us the pain of his death.
When Wayne wasn't in prison, he earned his living singing country
and western songs and playing the guitar in bars. His idol was Merle
Haggard, who himself had a checkered past. Wayne became a voracious
reader in prison. His other idol was Gary Gilmore, the first person
to be executed since the 1976 re-instatement of the death penalty,
who was famous for his desire to be put to death. His favorite book
was The Executioner's Song, Norman Mailers novel about Gilmores
life, and he read it over and over. Before he went to Stateville the
first time, he gave me the book with these lines circled:
I'm so used to bullshit
and hostility, deceit and pettiness, evil and
hatred. Those things are my natural habitat. They have shaped me.
I look at the world through eyes that suspect, doubt, fear, hate,
cheat,
mock, are selfish and vain. All things unacceptable. I see them as
natural and have even come to accept them as such. I look around the
ugly vile cell and know that I truly belong in a place this dank and
dirty, for where else should I be?
Those of us who loved Wayne miss him greatly. He was a difficult person
to love sometimes, but those of us who were allowed to get close to
him were changed by the experience. I am grateful to Wayne for allowing
me to be a part of his life and to actually witness and be the recipient
of such an act of love and sacrifice.
This addendum was written
by Charles Schiedel, the head of the state Appellate Defenders
Supreme Court Unit, who represented Wayne:
I felt quite close to Wayne on his good days,
when he was not expressing his misery. He could be very demanding
and stubborn but it was impossible not to like him. Wayne showed me
more gratitude and personal connection than any one I have represented.
He also left me with a terrific line: One of the last things he said
to me on the night of his execution was that I would never believe
how lonely it had been being the only guilty guy on death row!
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